Getting that impulse again

Once upon a time when i was young and very much more angsty then i currently am i spent my days hating people and ranting continuously. I developed this organ somewhere that makes me target people that i dislike alot and make me plot and plan and DO things to make them utterly miserable.

SJI somehow suppressed that and i only got so pissed twice in four years till i thought i wont be such a bastard anymore.

But now a candidate has appeared. A being so screwy that the first comment i heard upon hearing this persons name was a negative one and that every comment prior to meeting this person did not give one a good impression.

With comments ranging from "Two-faced Fuck" to "Pervert" and multiple examples and evidences from people near and far to him, my seeing him face to face was not terrific.

I remember him sitting down alone while everyone else chatted in groups and at first almost feeling sorry for the sorang little child, but then i realised it was more of that he didnt want to participate for whatever foolish reason he may have had. That day (First day of OGL meeting thing) he disappeared halfway, apparently cause he found it boring.

That kinda ticked me off, alot actually. I guess in my typical despicable malicious way i vented it out on a friend, and i'm sorry bout that man, if u felt hurt.

today i had a msn convo going on from around 2 to 3 am till now, where its still going on. Much of e later convo is about this fellow and i must say that impulse went from the nostalgic tingle when i first met him to the current full blown psychotic urge to just screw him up.

Even now i'm getting FACTS, not opinions mind you, about how hes not just a backstabber but also a hypocrite, that what he backstabs people about also applies to him in full force.

I hate Two-Faced Fucks (TFFs) but more than that i hate hypocrites.

That impulse is pulling.

I can't sleep i cant thin straight im too excited i wana hurt him i wana make him cry i wana i wana i wana.

But everytime i do this i end up screwing some part up and getting unwanted effects. I hope this time, if i cant control myself, i dont screw up.

HOWEVER thats all rant so noone should care about this much. I do realise though that this has become a ranting blog. The type that talks all about my life as if anyone cares. I hate those blogs, now im hating this blog. This sucks. And i rant yet again.

ANYWAY onto happier, less depressing stuff like my CHRISTMAS PRESENTS! BTW i must apologise for not saying A MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!!!!

Okay, well i didnt get much but i DID get this random perfume/cologne thingy from bodyshop which was VERY cool-ly packaged in a paper bag with a ribbon and stuff, very nice.

I also got a rather cool pendant thing that i'm going to wear later along with my 1337 rings (okay, RING)

Okay so i don't get exciting stuff for christmas anymore, that ended like a couple of years ago along with my innocence and my last Transformer toy (that happens to be lying somewhere at the salvation army. I think/hope)

Oh Oh i also got PLAY DOUGH. Haha! Seriously i never played with it before, im almost scared to make something =,= Havent sculpted in over 2 years!

But this christmas my mom and dad are in China, so i'm a rather free boy on 25th of December 2007 (today)

Anyhow i'm tired and i should sleep for today is meant for playing and i need my ENERGY.

Or i can go play LAN and get a magical instant refuel to my concentration/awakeness levels!

Rawr, the magic of DotA =/