the things people do

Well then my sister wants to buy shoes so my mom brought her to causeway point and since my kitchens renovating (takes so long...) i had to tag along for lunch at Seoul Garden or end up paying for my own meal.

However it appears the effects of my rapidly degenerating eye are finally manifesting in headaches, giddiness, nausea and a certain weakness that makes me feel like i'm going to fall anytime. I sure hope i'm fit for the GA cause i really don't want to be awake while people cut my eye up.

So we ate at the crowded food court. Imagine you're sitting with your boyfriend/girlfriend and you're both chatting lovingly, holding each others hands before going to buy food and some lady with 2 kids in tow comes over and asks "Is there anyone sitting here?" whilst tapping on the opposite side of the round table. As normal, courteous people they had to say no and proceed to be visibly stunned and shy as my mother plopped herself onto the chair and motioned for us to sit. Her insensitivity to the feelings of others appalls me, though she probably has some wierd reason that makes sense in her own fashion of morals.

Its these things people do when they don't think things through, or when they are fuelled by some idea that unfortunately does not seem proper to most others that makes interactions uncomfortable and awkward at times. Of course, we all experience such encounters regularly and it is more common to find people disagreeing rather than agreeing. After all if this weren't the case we'd really. naturally have "World Peace" and we wouldn't need Miss Universe finalists to constantly remind us of its importance.

If we think about it, though, its hard to imagine life without a conflict of ideas or perspectives. It would be like the "Utopias" that many movies show where everybody is content and satisfied but never really happy. Perhaps our world has a certain level of happiness that works like energy, it can't be created. When we are happy, in some way or another it will link back to the unhappiness of another, in whatever seemingly unrelated link at a different time even. Lets say all the labourers in the world who slog for 16 hours a day suddenly gain increased pay that matches their efforts, or work less hours and thus become happier. We, the consumers of the goods that they play a part in making, will become less happy when we see the price of the goods rising, or the stocks becoming limited. Some may feel some form of altruistic happiness at the relief of suffering but they are usually the minority and even then, when they're relatives or friends become slightly more unhappy they become more irritable and their relationship suffers.

True some people may say this is a standalone example, or that this is merely one way of seeing it but then let me give other examples. When you win a competition you are happy, but the losers? They certainly won't show it or even be consciously angry but at some level they are disappointed, and at whatever level of mental state, disappointment leads to sadness. Or what about when we feel happy that our stocks (think wall street) have improved, the money has to come from somewhere, and thats from other's pockets. We are happy at our grades because we worked hard and for any competitive reason but there are those who will look upon your better grades and still feel inferior and sad. It is not a conscious thing, but in some way or another, happiness has to be taken from someone, somewhere.

Of course the idea of happines working like energy is ridiculous since it is a state of mind. But it is the cause of our society that it works similarly, that instead of conversion of energy the world's happiness works like the flow of a river. An increase somewhere is due to a decrease somewhere.

Many would disagree of course. And they're mostly the happy altruists. The happy samaritans. The happy volunteers. The happy rich people. The happy donators. The happy people. Knowing happiness comes from sadness certainly takes away ones happiness to some extent, and those made sad, they get some happiness that someones begun to understand.

but be happy for you cant help it