i dream i die

Its some masochistic perversion my brain has perhaps, to let me think up new ways to die. And since i tend to wake 3 or 4 times a night that means theres 4 to 5 chances every night huh. Ok thats pretty morbid, but it quite explains why i don't like movies like final destination, unreal but in dreamland your mind tells you everything is logical, because your mind makes that dream.

But i have not dreamt of death for a few days, instead i get weird dreams. Before yesterday's Chemistry paper, i dreamt i woke at 1pm and realised i was screwed. Today i had that dream of waiting again, just not by the stream.

I was a boy sitting in a thousand lane highway with a basket of roses. Millions of cars pass me while i stand there, some toss me coins, some throw me roses, some water my roses. And every so often a rose truck comes and i buy more roses. The cars experience no jams or crashes, like the flow of time they move on for infinity. So i stand for a car amidst the horde, i stand to give it roses as it passes me. And then it passes, and again i wait for the coins and the roses and the rose truck, and the car. I stand there with the monotony, as endless, colourless blur of vehicles whizz by me, for infinity i stand, for infinity i give and wait, till infinity.

And then i woke. No sudden change/death that usually wakes me. It was just...awaking. Yet the feeling is like sinking, where struggling and pulling do not bring you up, you just sink.

Later maths paper 2. Good luck all J2s!!! =D